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Where am I?

11 Jul

The past few weeks have been crazy.  I have a new house and a new job.  I still feel like I don’t really work at my new office, and I don’t really live at my new house.  I’m just visiting for a while.  Also, I can no longer set my car on auto-pilot (figuratively, of course).  Now when I get in my car, I have to think about where I’m going.  Every turn is important.

It’s very exciting to be in our new house.  We plan to have a family in this house (if it’s in the cards).  We don’t plan on leaving anytime soon, so now I feel like every renovation/update we do will be for us to enjoy rather than the next owners.

Along with our new house excitement comes a lot of stress.  Sometimes it’s good stress, and sometimes it’s not-so-good stress.  Regardless, stress is stressful.  I sit around making lists of lists then try to prioritize items on the lists.  Once I’m finished organizing, prioritizing, and researching, I realize whatever I want to do is going to cost a ton of money.  Naturally, I go back to organizing and editing my lists.  Number one: write a blog post about lists… etc.

As far as the job goes, I’m approximately 60% excited about it.  I’m ecstatic to be employed, to have a great manager, to work for a large company, to have flexible work hours, and to be able to live and work in Knoxville.  The 40% non-excitement is comprised of: I don’t really know what I’m doing yet, I know enough about what I’m doing to feel like I should be doing more, and the office/people/software are unfamiliar to me and therefore I am uncomfortable.  I miss the people at my former office, too.  I think there’s nothing wrong with missing people but still knowing I’ve made a good move.

Fortunately for me that remaining 40% will come.  It just takes time.  It took about a year at my last job to have a good level of comfort.  I just have to keep reminding myself that it’s OK to be new.  But doesn’t it still kind of stink to have to start all over again?  Just when I was becoming a mentor at my former employer, I’m back to the roll of student.  It will get easier… it will get easier… it will get easier.  There.  See?